odds & ends: damn all these words

have you ever had that sudden rush of overwhelming amount of thoughts and feelings and you couldn't get it out? as soon as you pick up a pen to write them down, nothing comes out and start staring at a blank page tapping your pen rapidly? and/or just as soon as you place your fingers on the keyboard to start typing, you end up finding yourself staring at a blank screen and a blinking cursor?

i tried to write today, but i couldn't get anything down, yet i had all these ideas, thoughts and feelings i wanted to express by writing down.  the words words simply wouldn't come out to the point of frustration. as if there was a bottleneck jam of all these words trying to come out all at the same time.  BUT instead of packing it up and putting away my composition notebook, i manage to pick up a piece of scratch paper and free flow and chicken scratch about it to at least salvage something out of my coconut shell. AND it reads and goes something like these -- 

damn all these words

it is leaving me blank

and speechless

all i want to do is reveal them

i can't get it written down

i can't get it all out 

i want to scream it and shout

all these thoughts and feelings

i feel like i'm gonna drown

i can't put them into words

so that you can see them 

read them

in hopes you can feel them

but i can't set them free

these damn words

it's actually bigger than they are

damn all these words

it means more than they are 

it's about you

my only light

my shining star

RyC

01.02.14

post script - if you're reading this, i hope they made sense, somehow.

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